My Direction for 2015

I’ve been having some deep thoughts lately about life and happiness and me and where I want to be.

Since our Yukon trip earlier this year, we’ve spent so much time day dreaming about moving to the Yukon, maybe living off-grid, cabin life, selling most of our stuff. I’ve liked and followed just about every online social media account from the Yukon. We sit for hours watching tv shows of people living their dreams, moving to Alaska, living off-grid, homesteading, hunting, trapping, living off the land.

I realized I’m wasting my life away, sitting on my ass, dreaming about the green grass on the other side of the fence.

Until it is practical for us to move to the Yukon, I need to put more of the elements (I think) I long for, into my life now.

I need to cook more. I hate planning and organization. But maybe it is a necessary evil for health and happiness. Usually supper is decided out of exasperation after we both ask each other incessantly what is for supper after work, and then stare in the fridge, freezer, and cupboards until we think up something that will be quick and easy.

I need to downsize. I need a cleaner house. Both of these go hand in hand. Our house is simply way too big. Combine that with two people who aren’t neat freaks, who were newly married and still feeling out their household responsibilities, and 7 years later we have a big house stuffed with clutter, and everything needs a good scrub. When your house is too big, it is easy to just move things around, or put them out of the way. I seem to crave clutter sometimes. I think we both do. A bare table just never stays bare. Just tonight we filled two more extra large garbage bags of clothes and coats to donate and filled another bag of clutter for the dump. This clutter recognition isn’t new, and in the last year I’ve thrown out so much. I used to have a hard time throwing things out, but that has drastically changed in the last year or two. Now, if I’m torn, I’ll take a photo of the memento, and toss it. It feels so freeing. But there is much more to pitch.

I want less technology. Does that sound crazy for some who works in tech? Maybe it is my old age, but my desire for more gadgets and their inevitable aggravations has really peaked in the last month or so. I don’t need automated light switches or doorknobs or exercise/movement trackers, or any more things tied to my smartphone. I need to stay off my devices more in 2015. Sitting on a computer working all day and night is how I packed on pounds. Now that I don’t have to work two or three jobs at once, day and night, I need to DO things, even if it is cooking and cleaning.

I need more adventure, more nature, more outside. More star gazing. More hiking. More sunshine. The elements that feed my soul, that I sometimes starve myself of, for no reason at all.

Overall 2014 has been a fabulous year. I’ve healed, I’ve travelled, I’ve loved, and I’m happy. But there is more work to do! 2015 is going to be fabulous. And it all starts now. Happy New Year!